Hoping and wishing and praying

Well things aren't going according to plan with Miss Olivia's eyes.

We went at the end of September and Mr Nayak said that her right eye wasn't doing too well and it may be worthwhile operating in November when they had planed to have another look under anaesthetic. I was OK with this as her left eye was compensating so I shouldn't have noticed a difference.

We went back mid October just to confirm whether they were going to were going to operate or not and in the couple of weeks her left eye had deteriorated and was now worse than the right eye. Cue me feeling awful as I just hadn't noticed that she might be struggling.

So we have one operation booked in for next week and the second needs to be done within a couple of weeks but there isn't any room in the lists so she needs to be shuffled in somewhere.

I'm not feeling to guilty now as it must have just been starting when we went as it is clear she is struggling. When she holds things close she goes all cross eyed bless her.

Now for the hoping, wishing and praying. I have a horrible chest cold with a cough that rattles everything it can. If O gets it then it means operations cancelled. This can not happen so come on wonderful antibodies in breast milk to fight off any nasties that may try to get her!

The added uncertainty means I now get a little longer on my maternity leave which is nice if I ignore the fact that I won't get paid :s ah well we will be fine. Well as long as they aren't cancelled!

The nursery have been just wonderful with us. I was worried that they might think I was messing them around as we keep changing the date and days she goes but the nursery manager has told me not to worry at all.

The nursery has been done up since we enrolled her and as of this week have a sensory room which will be brilliant for her, I am so happy with this nursery. It was initially are second choice but there is no way the other one would be this flexible with us.

I think all my gloom and stress lifted Monday afternoon and I relaxed Monday evening and got ill Monday night, I should maybe stress out again to get better? Although it has been lovely having two days were I haven't even got dressed hehe I only got dressed Wednesday because I felt guilty that O was stuck inside and I didn't have any chocolate in the house so I had to stock up :)

Weaning has turned into a bit of a chore, she's not keen on eating things even those that she previously liked although she guzzles the formula, typical. I am wondering if she is getting another tooth through or the one there is giving a bit of trouble. I must keep telling myself food is for fun until they are one and not stress out.

So that's all for now really. Can't think of anything else to say so better go get some fluids and watch Corrie :)

Three Months in one update

So here we are with an update. I haven’t been very good with blogging even though I downloaded an iPod app so that I could do during the many times I was pinned under Olivia feeding.

In fact the last person to blog on her was Olivia. I am trying my best to encourage her to stay on her stomach and she loves just hitting my iPod as it is bright and colourful so I put some baby apps on there and I think she somehow managed to post whilst I obviously wasn’t paying attention heh

So three months of goings on to update on!

23rd July Mia Rostance made her entrance into the world (I still have her present to post, whoops. I must put that on my to do list this week!!) I have seen Gem and Mia but brain like a sieve obviously. Mia is just gorgeous and Gem being Gem was back to looking fabulous in no time at all (biatch xx)

August was about hospitals. Olivia’s consultant had booked us in fro two weeks to get her operations done. We went in on the Monday and had some tests and I had explained that I forget she has poor sight as she focuses so well. Tuesday morning she went into her ops.

All was fine and she was nosing everywhere and enjoyed playing on the bed until they got the gas mask to send her to sleep. The anaesthetist told me not worry as children generally think it is a game but she really didn't like it and struggled and cried and as the anaesthetic was kicking in the cries and flailing just got sadder, cue lots of crying from me :s Thankfully Helen was on hand to spend some time with me and give me a hug or two.

She came back from theatre rather smiley but really groggy only to find that nothing has been done this time. When they got a good look in her eyes they decided at this time that the risks were greater than any benefit. Plan then was to have eye drops every morning to open the eye a bit so to do all our play and learning bits in the morning, 4 weekly reviews and we go back in November for another detailed look under anaesthetic. Although this may turn into actual ops as her left eye is now struggling and I am noticing it more and more now.

Is it wrong that I thought it was funny that she was rather hoarse and croaky after the op and when she babbled it was rather deep and she normally squeaks and squeals (Tom nicknames her squeak).

I can’t remember anything else from August, it was ages ago!

September was my birthday and it was lovely. Tom took the week off so we spent some fab quality time together just wandering around the city and visiting family and having friends over.

We stared weaning and the food is going down rather well but formula is very hit and miss. We had a two week long battle before she decided that she would actually drink a fair bit.

Did anything else happen in September? Oh this is terrible is my memory really this bad? At least it keeps a three month update shorter than it would have otherwise been.

Now we are in October and Olivia is coming along so fast, she decided to save things up and this week has learnt to sit up properly, had a good growth spurt and had her first tooth pop out.

It is Tom’s birthday on Monday. I have to say that inspiration was lacking on his birthday present. I better start thinking of Christmas presents now so that he can have something nice. Though to be fair if the man only has one hobbie (computers) there is little I can do :)

He also has the week off so Monday we are off out for lunch with the mothers and than have a lovely week off together and really enjoy the time together.

Then it is back to hospitals the week after, me and Olivia then a week of getting cup feeding down and then we either spend two days or two weeks at alder hey followed by nursery and work boooooooooooooooooooo.

Still a good while yet before that so just focus on the good and ignore the bad. Mind you, even when I go back to work it is only a few weeks until Christmas and Tom has the whole time off YAY

That will do for now I think, I have a cup of tea and biscuits waiting for me :)