So I guess I should update as it has been a very long time, almost three months!!
Well the last post I was hoping for three things that weekend they were, time off, lotto win and a BFP. I knew I would get one and I said three would be greedy but I was lucky enough to get two and I’m not millionaire :)
Friday 19th June I tested as I was going out that night and got a negative result, I kept the fact I tested to myself as it was nice to try and ignore it. I had a few drinkies after work to cheer myself up although it was a slight disappointment as the girls could not make mojitos! Bah, next day we popped to see Miss Mainey at a BBQ and had a few drinks but again not much as I was tired. I cried myself to sleep that night as I had cramps and was certain the next day I was going to come on.
Woke up Sunday and no monthly friend, I was a little surprised I tended to start during my sleep (I am sharing aren’t I haha) trying to fool myself on TTC with my symptoms that had vanished a few days earlier but I thought what the hell lets POAS. I didn’t wake Tom up didn’t really see the point. A line kinda of sort off appeared but not really. Thus lots of shouting from downstairs trying to get Tom, he had his ipod on so couldn’t hear me. He agreed that there was almost a line and said “maybe it means you’re almost pregnant” haha. We went along to tesco but I couldn’t buy a digital test there as I was convinced I would run into one of our partners so went to boots that afternoon and tested and I was rather shocked to read the word pregnant.
That day was Father’s Day! :)
I never posted after that as I didn’t want to jinx anything! Seeing as I am now almost 16 weeks I though that I should do an update.
Pregnancy wise it has been an eye opener. No matter how often you hear about symptoms and what may happen, I really wasn’t expecting the level of sleepiness that I had. Seriously, I would get in from work and sit down and I would be a gone for two hours, wake up and eat my tea and then in bed by 9 until the alarm at 7! Weekends consisted of loooong afternoon naps. Sickness didn’t really kick in until about 10 weeks and was a weird kind of comfort. Obviously being sick isn’t nice but it was reassuring to know that there was obviously something going on inside me to make me feel that way heh.
Sickness has settled down and although I am still sick every couple of days I don’t feel sick constantly and now it is kind of “uh oh feel sick, uh oh am sick ahhh right what was I doing haha
I am at a stage now were my clothes are getting tight and I am trying to decide whether I have the start of a bump or its too much cake haha.
So life the past few months has been sleep, work, sleep, food, sleep and a little more sleep.
Work wise things are twenty million times better!! I kind of had a mini breakdown when I was getting taken in to see the managing partner about things that I felt totally unable to control. I decided that stress and snide comments were a bad combination for me and asked for a role change. I am now back in Liverpool as a secretary. A comment was made that I would be begging for my old job back after a week of typing for one partner but I really could not be happier.
It is fab to be back with Vicki and Ellie and the other girls and lovely to see Gem all the time as she spends more time in Court than in her office which is great for us :)
It is so nice to go in and know that comments will not be made that I finish on time. This was a huge bug bear with people in work as most of us would get into work an hour early and eat lunch at our desk but it was always comments about us leaving at 5. If we went in at 9 and had our lunch and stayed until 7 it would have made them happier but were did it matter when we worked the extra time.
I was so ready to just walk out which would have been sad as I have worked with the company for 9 years and I do like most of the people there but thankfully it has all worked out well.
This week in particular has been really nice as the partner I am working for this week is just lovely and is a rare breed in knowing how to say thank you and actually mean it. I am enjoying the work sitting and typing and not actually having to think about things is lovely.
No doubt in time I will miss my old role and I will be keeping my practising certificate going for a while so the option is still there but it was nice that as far as my cases went I finished on a high. A case that had me stressing at the mention of it stayed with me after my move as it was listed for a final hearing. The barrister for the other side can be a horror and was patronising at most of the hearings and my confidence was knocked a fair but due to all the extra stress. It went to final hearing and I spent hooooooooours preparing for it and hoorah it paid off as we got what we were looking for.
In family cases we always say that no one is a winner, which I true especially in children’s cases, but some of the things that happened in this case really annoyed me and I really started to take the whole thing far too personally in the end and I am soooo glad that the outcome was a good one (for the child as well not just my client!)
So this getting to be a rather long post and I am getting tired. Liverpool have just won against Debenhams (OK I have no idea who they were playing but it said Deb) so it will be a happy office.
I will have to keep up to date with this again now effort this mammoth effort :)
TTFN :)
