Hoping and wishing and praying

Well things aren't going according to plan with Miss Olivia's eyes.

We went at the end of September and Mr Nayak said that her right eye wasn't doing too well and it may be worthwhile operating in November when they had planed to have another look under anaesthetic. I was OK with this as her left eye was compensating so I shouldn't have noticed a difference.

We went back mid October just to confirm whether they were going to were going to operate or not and in the couple of weeks her left eye had deteriorated and was now worse than the right eye. Cue me feeling awful as I just hadn't noticed that she might be struggling.

So we have one operation booked in for next week and the second needs to be done within a couple of weeks but there isn't any room in the lists so she needs to be shuffled in somewhere.

I'm not feeling to guilty now as it must have just been starting when we went as it is clear she is struggling. When she holds things close she goes all cross eyed bless her.

Now for the hoping, wishing and praying. I have a horrible chest cold with a cough that rattles everything it can. If O gets it then it means operations cancelled. This can not happen so come on wonderful antibodies in breast milk to fight off any nasties that may try to get her!

The added uncertainty means I now get a little longer on my maternity leave which is nice if I ignore the fact that I won't get paid :s ah well we will be fine. Well as long as they aren't cancelled!

The nursery have been just wonderful with us. I was worried that they might think I was messing them around as we keep changing the date and days she goes but the nursery manager has told me not to worry at all.

The nursery has been done up since we enrolled her and as of this week have a sensory room which will be brilliant for her, I am so happy with this nursery. It was initially are second choice but there is no way the other one would be this flexible with us.

I think all my gloom and stress lifted Monday afternoon and I relaxed Monday evening and got ill Monday night, I should maybe stress out again to get better? Although it has been lovely having two days were I haven't even got dressed hehe I only got dressed Wednesday because I felt guilty that O was stuck inside and I didn't have any chocolate in the house so I had to stock up :)

Weaning has turned into a bit of a chore, she's not keen on eating things even those that she previously liked although she guzzles the formula, typical. I am wondering if she is getting another tooth through or the one there is giving a bit of trouble. I must keep telling myself food is for fun until they are one and not stress out.

So that's all for now really. Can't think of anything else to say so better go get some fluids and watch Corrie :)

Three Months in one update

So here we are with an update. I haven’t been very good with blogging even though I downloaded an iPod app so that I could do during the many times I was pinned under Olivia feeding.

In fact the last person to blog on her was Olivia. I am trying my best to encourage her to stay on her stomach and she loves just hitting my iPod as it is bright and colourful so I put some baby apps on there and I think she somehow managed to post whilst I obviously wasn’t paying attention heh

So three months of goings on to update on!

23rd July Mia Rostance made her entrance into the world (I still have her present to post, whoops. I must put that on my to do list this week!!) I have seen Gem and Mia but brain like a sieve obviously. Mia is just gorgeous and Gem being Gem was back to looking fabulous in no time at all (biatch xx)

August was about hospitals. Olivia’s consultant had booked us in fro two weeks to get her operations done. We went in on the Monday and had some tests and I had explained that I forget she has poor sight as she focuses so well. Tuesday morning she went into her ops.

All was fine and she was nosing everywhere and enjoyed playing on the bed until they got the gas mask to send her to sleep. The anaesthetist told me not worry as children generally think it is a game but she really didn't like it and struggled and cried and as the anaesthetic was kicking in the cries and flailing just got sadder, cue lots of crying from me :s Thankfully Helen was on hand to spend some time with me and give me a hug or two.

She came back from theatre rather smiley but really groggy only to find that nothing has been done this time. When they got a good look in her eyes they decided at this time that the risks were greater than any benefit. Plan then was to have eye drops every morning to open the eye a bit so to do all our play and learning bits in the morning, 4 weekly reviews and we go back in November for another detailed look under anaesthetic. Although this may turn into actual ops as her left eye is now struggling and I am noticing it more and more now.

Is it wrong that I thought it was funny that she was rather hoarse and croaky after the op and when she babbled it was rather deep and she normally squeaks and squeals (Tom nicknames her squeak).

I can’t remember anything else from August, it was ages ago!

September was my birthday and it was lovely. Tom took the week off so we spent some fab quality time together just wandering around the city and visiting family and having friends over.

We stared weaning and the food is going down rather well but formula is very hit and miss. We had a two week long battle before she decided that she would actually drink a fair bit.

Did anything else happen in September? Oh this is terrible is my memory really this bad? At least it keeps a three month update shorter than it would have otherwise been.

Now we are in October and Olivia is coming along so fast, she decided to save things up and this week has learnt to sit up properly, had a good growth spurt and had her first tooth pop out.

It is Tom’s birthday on Monday. I have to say that inspiration was lacking on his birthday present. I better start thinking of Christmas presents now so that he can have something nice. Though to be fair if the man only has one hobbie (computers) there is little I can do :)

He also has the week off so Monday we are off out for lunch with the mothers and than have a lovely week off together and really enjoy the time together.

Then it is back to hospitals the week after, me and Olivia then a week of getting cup feeding down and then we either spend two days or two weeks at alder hey followed by nursery and work boooooooooooooooooooo.

Still a good while yet before that so just focus on the good and ignore the bad. Mind you, even when I go back to work it is only a few weeks until Christmas and Tom has the whole time off YAY

That will do for now I think, I have a cup of tea and biscuits waiting for me :)

Yh ptxnn

Benjamin Christopher Mott

The lovely Nichola and Joe are now the proud parents of a scrummy little boy called Benjamin. He was born today at 12.45am weighing 9lb.

I have spent most of the day having little crying times. When I got the text at 2.30 I cried a bit, when i posted the BA I cried, when I texted some folks I cried, when I looked at the pics I cried and when I was reading the updates and messages to them from people I cried, it really is such a wonderful thing!

There is another member for team Logan, all we need now is to find out the flavour of beansprout to see which team will be kicking ass :)

I hope that all settle well and that visits can take place soon :)

Love you guys xx

LIFE PLANS

Nich is currently in labour, how exciting, just waiting for news so I thought I would share my life plans with you blogworld.

Over the past few weeks I have been thinking about a good life plan, a sort of trying to decide what I want to do when I grow up type thing. Well I have come up with a lovely plan and a rather sensible one as well.

1. Go back to work 1st December 2010 as a secretary, who can be bothered with the stress of having clients? Maybe at some point but the thought of working late and then bringing work home so does not appeal to me so being a secretary will be perfect. Plus the 1st December means on my first day (or in the first week at least) I can decorate the office Christmassy so that will help!

2. Work full time (weep) to try and save some pennies to buy ourselves a bigger house. I keep looking at houses which is a little now but there are some nice ones just a few minutes up the road with off road parking and gardens, woooo.

3. When the fixed term runs out on the mortgage in two years buy said house mentioned above.

4. When moved into new home have baby number two.

5. When all babies are old enough to appreciate it go on holiday to Orlando with as many other people that want to come and hire a villa for cheap. (Note to self – Jade just bought one so ask her about mates rates!)

So that is my life plan, as I said above very sensible and achievable (hopefully).

If for some reason the above is not workable then I am going to live on the USS Enterprise with Captain Jean-Luc Picard! This has been a good discussion between myself a Skip.

Life on the Enterprise would be awesome on the basis that EVERYONE will know my name and I will not be going on away missions.

There will be no need to cook as there is a replicator, mmm food on demand. On days were we can’t be bothered slaving over a replicator we can pop down to ten forward and get some drinks and food from Guinan. How awesome would a birthday party in ten forward be?!

There isn’t any money so no need to worry about bills and so on.

Counsellor Troi is to be kicked off the ship, she is rubbish!

As we all have to do something to earn our place on the ship, no freeloaders! I am going to be Jean-Luc’s secretary. He is a very busy man and he doesn’t have a secretary, how on earth has he managed so long without me!

We’re going to help Data with his human skills and watch Spot when Data is on away missions.

There will also be endless amusements provided by the lovely Q!

There is to be a cross over from some of the characters from Voyager. The first is Chakotay. There is just something about that man that means he HAS to be there. We will also have the doc, seven and Neelix.

Life aboard the enterprise would be awesome and I think a very good back up plan should plan one not work :).

Oh we might also have to have the Count from Sesame Street there as well!

Fingers crossed we're done!

Two nights on the run O has slept for 12 hours, fingers crossed that my sleeping baby is back after the growth spurt seems to have passed.

We had her last needles yesterday until she is one and she did great, had a cry for a minute as they must hurt but then was fine and dandy and they never bothered her last night and she has been good as gold today.

Been feeling a little blue today though that is probably due to to a stupid comment from someone about my parenting. it has really bloody got to me, I thought it was supposed to be funny at first but no it was meant. Well screw you I think I am a good mum, she is well loved and well fed and my HV called me "a lovely little mum" and your parenting choices can be called into questions so AaAaarRrRrgGggGGhHHhh feck off.

Gosh I am so hungry all the time I am sat here thinking about what to update on and all I can think of is go and eat toast with jam yum yum yums. I think I will go and do that it might perk me up.

Seriously

Come on growth spurt, I was so used to my lovely long sleeper, pass already and give her back!

Yaaaawn.

It wouldn't be so bad if I had slept when I went to bed.

Actually am I blaming the gs when actually it's the sand man...